Sunday, May 10, 2015
As I sit and write this blog post thinking about my project, I feel like a failure. I downright failed. I wanted to do something amazing and make a difference, but that was not the case in the end. Everyone tells me that it's the fact that I kept trying is what counts, but in my mind, it's the end result. I know I shouldn't do that, but that's just the person I am. My failure has been haunting me for the past weeks and it's been eating away at my soul. There are so many things I wish I would have changed looking back on it all and I would re-do this experience if I could. I felt like I have wasted a whole year on doing nothing but exchanging emails. I felt like I have failed Caroline and Mr. P. They both had such high hopes and I did as well, and it was my connection at the hospital that we were working with and when none of that panned out I felt like the blame rested on me, but in a way I also wonder what could I have done differently? We were always waiting for the hospitals response. Maybe I could have contacted more places for the group and I could have taken matters into my own hands instead of letting our fate rest with one person. I think I had tunnel vision when doing this project, I thought it could only be at St. John's and no where else. I think if I would have expanded our options more, then I might not have failed. I guess when wrapping this up I just want to say sorry to everyone that I let down, I really wanted this to work too.
Monday, April 20, 2015
So our project has come to a dissipointing ending. We received an email from the head social worker saying that they were worried about the attendance of our group and they suggested that we take it elsewhere. That email really hurt. We worked so hard and just to get one email and all our hard work is wasted. We decided that we are going to stop our project for now and maybe revisit it later. Right now we are just focusing on what we learned and preparing for our speech. At this point I think we learned that nothing worth while is easy. We came into this project wanting to make a difference and we found out that making a difference is harder than it seems. But that is true with anything in life, it's going to be a struggle. I think about all the amazing people who have made a difference in the world, Ghandi, MLK and Mother Theresa, these people all faced hardships to make a change in the world. Overall this project has taught me a lot of things, but the thing that I'll always remeber is that anything worth your while is gonna take some hardwork on your part. In the end I am truly thankful for the opportunity that I was given to do this project.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
So this week has been very productive! Last Friday Caroline and I met with Jessica, our social worker and we talked about our project. She said that she has been trying to contact the social worker on the pediatric unit, but she wasn't able to get through. Jessica gave us the social worker in the pediatric unit's email. Caroline and I emailed her right away an she got back to us and said she loved our idea. She also said that she is going to work with Jessica and her pediatric manager to get this thing going! I'm really excited, because this looks like quite a possibility. I'm going to email Arlene again this week and check in to see how everything is going. My only fear is that we won't be able to get the group off the ground by the end of the school year. That's my only worry right now.
Sunday, March 8, 2015
So as you know, last week Caroline and I were really frustrated about our project. Nothing has been happening, our connection at the hospital still says that she is working with it, but I don't know. We gave this plan to her months ago and I don't know if she really has done things with it or she is just stalling to tell us that it won't work. Anyway, we decided that we need to sit down with her face to face and have a talk with to see where we stand. We emailed her about that Friday and are still waiting to hear back from her, but we hope to meet sometime this week. In the meantime, we have been looking at other possible locations for our program. We have looked at Beaumont and Children's Hospital. We are still looking for who we can contact at those places, but we are making progress. We just want to be prepared if something doesn't work out at St. John's. Also, we have been consulting our friend Elizabeth who is a patient at C.S. Mott, beacuse she is apart of their teen group, and we have been getting ideas how to run our meetings from her. I just hope we can get this program off the ground by the end of next month, since this has been taking way too long. Wish us luck!
Sunday, February 22, 2015
So as you know Caroline and I sent back our response to Jessica's question two weeks ago. I have emailed her twice and have still gotten no reply. I am very frustrated because we are ready to start doing things but we always get no response. I know that Jessica has an actual job, but we have sent her two emails in the last week and she still hasn't responded. I think we need to have another meeting with her to go over new things and see where we are now. Ugh, I am just overall frustrated 😖.
Sunday, February 8, 2015
Well, things have been going really well with our project. Our social worker returned our email at the beginign of this week with a few questions. How many people we would want in our group and how we were going to advertise it. We said the size of the group would depend on how many patients we would get from the hospital because we want to try to have a equal ratio. We also said that we would start the group small and then if we find that more people want to join, then we would be happy to increase the size. As to the advertising, we asker her opinion what would be the best way to get the information out to the patients. For the teens in our community, we have already got an overwhelming response from people who would want to take part in the group. I am so happy that this is starting to gain traction. We sent out ideas back to Jessica and she said she was going to pass it on to her other social workers and if we found one that would sponsor our program we would start looking at spaces to hold our meetings. Finally everything is going as planned. Next Caroline and I are going to start thinking about how we would want to conduct out meetings. We don't want the group to be really sad, we want to talk about teen issues that are relevant to all of us. We also don't want to push anyone to talk about something that makes them uncomfortable. Well, that's all for now.
Sunday, January 25, 2015
I am sort of at a road block in our project. We gave our social worker our plan for the program a week ago and she still has not gotten back to us on it. I have emailed her and she still hasn't responded. I'm am going to email her again tomorrow, but I'm just stressed now that if she doesn't get back to us we won't complete our project. I feel like if this doesn't work then I will have no idea what else to do for a project since there is nothing else that I'm really passionate about. I don't know, I guess I just feel a little stuck right now. Hopefully this week we make more progress.
Sunday, January 11, 2015
So I will admit it... I failed to do much about my project over Christmas Break. I know, it was really bad of me and I screwed up, but I have already done things to make up for me being lazy for 2 weeks. Well to be fair I did try to do something with my project over break, but I had technical difficulties. I was sending Caroline's and mine strategy for our program to our social worker and in the email I would Cc myself so I knew if Jessica had received it, but it turns out that I was getting the email to say it went throught but she wasn't. I sent it practically 20 times. So when we were in class of Friday, Caroline and I sent out strategy to the printer and I was determined to get the paper to Jessica after school. I wasn't going to let my stupid email stop me from continuing on with our project. So after school I went to Van Elslander and met her in the oncology clinic and handed the paper to her. It felt good to give it to her and to know that now things would start rolling with our project. Jessica said that she would look it over and then pass it on to the other social workers and if one of them liked the idea then they would be our program sponsor and then we would start planning out all the details. I just gave it to her 2 days ago so we haven't heard anything yet but we are hoping next week we will hear, so on Friday we can work on it. In the end I'm happy beacuse I didn't let my laziness stop me from doing something I'm passionate about. Also I thought that me not doing anything on break was a sign that I wasn't interested enough and should switch my project. I find that the more I think about what our program could be the more excited I become because I can't wait to help people and connect with people from all walks of life. Until next time!